mcfattie

I haven’t worked out in 2 days. I haven’t even made it over to the place to cancel my membership. But i’ve been really active. I’m always up early,and trying to get ahead start on everything. That’s good right?I weighed myself today. I’ve lost 8lbs! That’s very good news. However, I ended up eating bad things today,and yesterday. I didn’t overeat.I just ate things that are’nt on my diet list. Tomorrow is a better day. I figured until I can get to the grocery store again NEXT WEEK i’ll just cut my portions in half.  Another weird thing is, I used to love ranch. I’d eat it on anything,and everything. But here lately I can’t even stand the smell let alone the look of it. I mean I gag just thinking about it.Does anyone else know a low carb dressing that tastes pretty good? I’m pretty excited that I’ve lost 8 pounds. I can already feel it in my face, but I can’t wait until I lose the other 50lbs i’m trying for!If I continue to lose 8lbs like this at a time (which I won’t lol)I’d be excited!Anywho…How has everyone else been? Sorry I haven’t been around much, I’ve been so busy!

Well, I found out today some pretty bad news. It’s nothing new, but it’s something that has to be done. My income is pretty low again, my boss cut my hours at work,and I’m barely getting by.  I have to pay 70 bucks a month for my gym membership(im also payin my sisters)Well, I can no longer afford it. So, i’ve got to cancel it 2morrow…I’m kind of happy because the gym isnt really worth it anyways the only thing i use is the stair machine and the tredmill,and i could get that excerise by walkin everyday,and also climbing stairs lol.

Anyway, I am kind of relived i guess. But at the same time scared I hope it doesn’t tamper with my excerising. Although I’m sure if i’m just active everyday (bicycling,walkin,hiking)I’d get just as much of use out of it then anything. What do you all think?

Well, today started out good but ended bad. I ended up eating a piece of pizza….I was so hungry….plus the problme i have is I am on a low carb diet,and my family eats regular foods. I have to wait until the 9th too  buy groceries so the past 3 days i’ve been practically starving! I’m so disappointed…

So, tonight before I got into the shower I seen the little black scale sitting their and I couldn’t resist, it’s only been 2 days right? I had lost 3 lbs? Maybe I was just bloated that day or something thats what i’m thinking. Or I could’ve just lost some water weight because i’ve been drinkin water a lot today?Whats your thoughts everyone?

I did really well on my diet today. I completed 40 minutes of excerise. (30 on tredmill 10 on stair master) I have completed my goal on the food that I have ate today. I feel really weak & tired though. Below is a list of things that I ate today.

Breakfast

2 Eggs/ One Sausage =4 carbs?

Lunch

A salad -4 carbs

chicken breast- 2 carbs

Dinner

Hamburger with a bit of mayo (like not even a tspoon) 4 carbs

Cucumber Slices-3 carbs

Total= 17 grams of carbs

I haven’t had much of an appitite today. I ended up throwing up because of the taste of ranch today (And I love ranch)I think I’m getting sick. I got home after the gym,and my place was a mess. I just wish people would clean up after them selfs!I feel so tired all the time anyway. When I get home from work I have a million things I have to do. And not to mention the long list of things my “friend”(ex boyfriend,sons father,roommate) has me to pick up for him while I’m in town. So, I cleaned my carpets today with a steam vac. The puppies (We have two and one big dog) Is having a hard time potty training,and they decide to pee all over the place!So, I got tired of waiting for my roommate to do it, and I ended up doing it. I think i’m just hungry,and cranky today. LoL I needed to vent. Anyway…My plan for tomorrow (actually i’m not even sure what my plan for tomorrow is because I don’t have an appitite)

I’m going to work out for 45 minutes I know that.

I’m probably going to eat more cucumbers because thats the only thing that is good sounding. If I didn’t know any better I’d say I was pregnant with all these weird things happening to me. Anyway, I’m going to go now!

I didn’t get to sleep last night until 4am!I was so tired this morning but I got up at 9 am. Cooked my breakfast, and made my coffee! Now i’m getting ready to go get ready for work. I also woke my son up at 9 this morning. He has been sleeping late, now as long as his daddy doesn’t send him to bed most of the day i’ll be doing good. Well, I’m off to get ready now!

Well kids, I’m back. This time I weigh 12lbs more then what I do when I started my journey last year.  I got to the point where I thought I like myself like this, why can’t anyone else except me? So, I ate and ate and ate…I never really thought of the example I was giving my child until we went to the doctor the other day. They said he too was overweight. Now for a child so young, he can work it off as active as he is. I noticed though, he isn’t as active because i’m not as active. I know summer is coming up,and although I’d like to be in shape by summer that’s pushing it. I’d like to lose 20lbs before the beginning of summer though. It gives me almost 2 months. I know that losing weight comes with many failures, but I am just so overwelmed anymore. When I get depressed, or sad I usually turn to food for comfort.  Anyway..By coming back here it’s my first step….

Tomorrow will be my second step.

My Menu for tomorrow is;

Breakfast

eggs,sausage, and some coffee(3 carbs)

lunch

Chicken strips (grilled) and some lettuce,tomato with sour cream

(like 5 carbs)

Snack

Cucumber Slices/with ranch(around 4 carbs)

Dinner

A salad

Chicken Breast

and green beans

(8 carbs)

Total= 20 carbs

Now tomorrow I have to work, and I work at a resturant. It’s going to be hard to resist all that food but I can do it. Also after work I plan on going to the gym for at least 45 minutes. I’d like to go before I go to work but I doubt I will because I already get so tired at work as it is! Anyway what do you all think?

So, I missed out on another day of excerising. I’m really beating myself up over that. I just feel like crap. All of a sudden I got depressed,and down out of know where. I can’t find the courage to get back up yet.Well the next few days from sun-until late friday afternoon i’ll be gone on a trip. Hopefully I’ll stay on track. I won’t be able to work out but maybe I’ll relieve some stress!

I’m thinking about joining a kickboxing class when i lose the fat. I don’t wanna be a fattie in the kickboxing class, not to mention there could be a few good looking guys,and thats the last thing they need. haha.

Well, I’m going to bed!

I’m on my way to bed so I figured before I’d go to bed I’d blog a bit about the last couple of days. Well, I started the monthly thing over the weekend, and to some it is a breeze but for me. It’s like recovering from a sickness. Since my iron is low anyways when I have my period, working out, and not eating enough was really rough. So, on the first day I cheated on my diet by eating beans,and a regular flour tortilla. On the second day, I ate mac and cheese,and didn’t work out because I felt like crap and slept a lot. On the third day. I just gave up,and cheated a lot. I haven’t been to the gym in four days!I know it’s a terrible thing to admit but its true!

But tomorrow I’m going to the gym probably early in the morning maybe for 30 mins or so, and then in the afternoon after work i’ll go for 45 mins. I’m going to make it all up. Hopefully…

So my goals for this week is to not cheat…and eat right. Excerise for at least 45 mins for the rest of the week…

Anyway i’m going to bed.

I don’t really like how the food journal or the excerise journal is because I can’t figure it out!It really irritates me.  But anyway…Here is a breakdown of things I had ate and done the past two days.

Yesterday

First went to subway to try those low carb wraps. I went in and asked the lady several times if they were low carb she said yes. So, I ate one. Then I figured out, after my long hard day of not eating much,and fixing my diet foods and such that I went online and found out that the low carb wrap is no more at subway!I was angry at them subway people!

So yesterday I ate salad,and the subway wrap. And worked out for 30 mins

Today

I had sausage patty with cheese which was like 2 carbs

And a pretty good dinner with green beans boiled eggs and a pork chop

for snacks I had sugar free pudding, with whip cream and some peanuts

I worked out for 45 mins and burned i think 260 calories at the work out place….not good but i’ll do better.

Anyway my question is….

Should I just get rid of the sugar free stuff all together(like the snacks etc?